Goodnight
Well, I know that nobody reads this, especially the person who I'd like to read it. Frustrating.
She never listens to me, really listens. I find that nobody does. People hear what I say, but they don't listen to me. I'm sure if someone asked one of my friends who Dave is, the response would be stuff about me, stuff people know; baseball, youth drop-ins, and the like. About me, not me.
And I can't ever find a way to really talk. So not only do people miss who I am, but there isn't any way to see it even if they really looked, it never comes out anymore.
Back to the girl. We almost had what one could consider a heart to heart. She was 'bummed' that she couldn't attend a church thing, and I told her that as long as she could hold on to what faith she had, things could ALWAYS work out.. She said she promised she would. I asked if she really meant it. She left. Was GONE for like 10 minutes. Yeah. If you asked someone about me, I doubt they'd say they respected me. Really.
Don't everyone comment and tell me how wrong I am. All none of you. I really could care less.
As far as relationships with people go, I am the following, at best:
-A good friend, one of many. Just another one.
-Another head in a crowd
-Just a boy
-Just a kid
-Trying to fit in
-Third/fourth best
-Just a friend
Man, I hate this. I am in no way significant like I wish I was to anybody. I wish that She loved me. I wish I was his or her best friend. I wish I was REALLY noticed. But these are all just wishes.
It's frustrating.
I'm remembered for something funny I did, never something important. Other than these few things, I wont be remembered at all.
I don't even know where to go with this. I don't care.
Goodnight.
She never listens to me, really listens. I find that nobody does. People hear what I say, but they don't listen to me. I'm sure if someone asked one of my friends who Dave is, the response would be stuff about me, stuff people know; baseball, youth drop-ins, and the like. About me, not me.
And I can't ever find a way to really talk. So not only do people miss who I am, but there isn't any way to see it even if they really looked, it never comes out anymore.
Back to the girl. We almost had what one could consider a heart to heart. She was 'bummed' that she couldn't attend a church thing, and I told her that as long as she could hold on to what faith she had, things could ALWAYS work out.. She said she promised she would. I asked if she really meant it. She left. Was GONE for like 10 minutes. Yeah. If you asked someone about me, I doubt they'd say they respected me. Really.
Don't everyone comment and tell me how wrong I am. All none of you. I really could care less.
As far as relationships with people go, I am the following, at best:
-A good friend, one of many. Just another one.
-Another head in a crowd
-Just a boy
-Just a kid
-Trying to fit in
-Third/fourth best
-Just a friend
Man, I hate this. I am in no way significant like I wish I was to anybody. I wish that She loved me. I wish I was his or her best friend. I wish I was REALLY noticed. But these are all just wishes.
It's frustrating.
I'm remembered for something funny I did, never something important. Other than these few things, I wont be remembered at all.
I don't even know where to go with this. I don't care.
Goodnight.
posted by Dave at 8:47 PM
1 Comments:
Hey Dave,my compy is working, so I'll be able to post and comment again:D
Dude, I can totally to relate to what you're talking about her. I often feel very insignifcant, especially in the eyes of a special someone.
Dave, you're definitely one of my best friends, and I'll really be praying for you.
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