Friday, September 23, 2005

Goodnight

Well, I know that nobody reads this, especially the person who I'd like to read it. Frustrating.

She never listens to me, really listens. I find that nobody does. People hear what I say, but they don't listen to me. I'm sure if someone asked one of my friends who Dave is, the response would be stuff about me, stuff people know; baseball, youth drop-ins, and the like. About me, not me.

And I can't ever find a way to really talk. So not only do people miss who I am, but there isn't any way to see it even if they really looked, it never comes out anymore.

Back to the girl. We almost had what one could consider a heart to heart. She was 'bummed' that she couldn't attend a church thing, and I told her that as long as she could hold on to what faith she had, things could ALWAYS work out.. She said she promised she would. I asked if she really meant it. She left. Was GONE for like 10 minutes. Yeah. If you asked someone about me, I doubt they'd say they respected me. Really.

Don't everyone comment and tell me how wrong I am. All none of you. I really could care less.

As far as relationships with people go, I am the following, at best:
-A good friend, one of many. Just another one.
-Another head in a crowd
-Just a boy
-Just a kid
-Trying to fit in
-Third/fourth best
-Just a friend

Man, I hate this. I am in no way significant like I wish I was to anybody. I wish that She loved me. I wish I was his or her best friend. I wish I was REALLY noticed. But these are all just wishes.

It's frustrating.

I'm remembered for something funny I did, never something important. Other than these few things, I wont be remembered at all.

I don't even know where to go with this. I don't care.

Goodnight.

2 Comments:

Blogger Eric said...

Hey Dave,my compy is working, so I'll be able to post and comment again:D

Dude, I can totally to relate to what you're talking about her. I often feel very insignifcant, especially in the eyes of a special someone.

Dave, you're definitely one of my best friends, and I'll really be praying for you.

7:02 AM  
Blogger TheDevilIsInTheDetails said...

Be prepared for the next miami hurricane football or find another one that's similar. As the Boy Scouts say: "Be Prepared"!

5:41 AM  

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