Friday, September 23, 2005

Goodnight

Well, I know that nobody reads this, especially the person who I'd like to read it. Frustrating.

She never listens to me, really listens. I find that nobody does. People hear what I say, but they don't listen to me. I'm sure if someone asked one of my friends who Dave is, the response would be stuff about me, stuff people know; baseball, youth drop-ins, and the like. About me, not me.

And I can't ever find a way to really talk. So not only do people miss who I am, but there isn't any way to see it even if they really looked, it never comes out anymore.

Back to the girl. We almost had what one could consider a heart to heart. She was 'bummed' that she couldn't attend a church thing, and I told her that as long as she could hold on to what faith she had, things could ALWAYS work out.. She said she promised she would. I asked if she really meant it. She left. Was GONE for like 10 minutes. Yeah. If you asked someone about me, I doubt they'd say they respected me. Really.

Don't everyone comment and tell me how wrong I am. All none of you. I really could care less.

As far as relationships with people go, I am the following, at best:
-A good friend, one of many. Just another one.
-Another head in a crowd
-Just a boy
-Just a kid
-Trying to fit in
-Third/fourth best
-Just a friend

Man, I hate this. I am in no way significant like I wish I was to anybody. I wish that She loved me. I wish I was his or her best friend. I wish I was REALLY noticed. But these are all just wishes.

It's frustrating.

I'm remembered for something funny I did, never something important. Other than these few things, I wont be remembered at all.

I don't even know where to go with this. I don't care.

Goodnight.

Friday, September 16, 2005

Hurricane Katrina and James 2:15-16

So, just over a week ago, my 12 disc changer in the trunk of my Aveo shorted out the power lock system, so I had to get it removed and replaced. I'm still waiting for the replaced part, and have been subjected to one or the other of two driving options: Silence, or the radio.

If you know me at all, you know that I love music when I'm driving. In fact, it's one of the few times I bother to listen to music, because I'm always doing something else. So silence is just not an option.

But on the other hand, I hate the radio. You can't choose what you listen to, and I'm very picky about what I listen to. I'm not big on secular, non-Christian music, and the few things I do like are never playing when I want to hear them. The Christian stations, on the other hand (WDCX 99.5 and Joy 1250) are liable to be airing preaching shows or Christian music of the trite pop variety that grates on my ears like nails on a chalkboard. Again, only very rarely do I hear something I want to hear.

A notable exception is the Drew Marshall Show, on 1250, Saturdays from 1 to 5. He's got this cool cutting-edge, real call-in show. I'd probably enjoy the preaching shows more if they weren't Protestant, all of them. There's a few that are good anyway, but yeah.

Then you get those gems of shows, like the one I was listening to the other day, "Hope-somethingorother-Ministries" and they had an appeal ad for raising money for the victims of Hurricane Katrina. Now, that's all well and good. Great, in fact! I'll give money to help (if I had money...). St. Andrew's is going to be raising money and sending it to the Diocese of New Orleans so that they can distribute it as they see need.

Now, the reason that this Hope Ministries, or whoever they were, bugged me, was because their appeal went thus: "For a simple donation of $20, we can put a Bible in the hands of a victim of Hurricane Katrina, as well as a devotional guide!"

You what?

More than a whole State has been devistated by a hurricane! People are out of their homes! And you want money to send them Bibles?! I mean, yeah, it's the Word of God! But seriously, let's get our priorities straight!

Here's how it's going to go down:
Hope Ministry guy: "Oh, you poor homeless person whose whole life was destroyed! Here's a Bible for you! God bless!"

Newly homeless guy, trying to rebuild his life: "Yeah, God bless you too, you asshole!"

Seriously, what is this organisation thinking?! "You can use it as an umbrella for when Hurricane Ophelia sweeps through"?!

It occurs to me that this is just what St. James was referring to when he wrote, "If one of the brothers or one of the sisters is in need of clothes and has not enough food to live on, and one of you says to them, 'I wish you well; keep yourself warm and eat plenty,' without giving them these bare necessities of life, then what good is that?" (James 2:15-16).

What good is that, indeed? Maybe Hope Ministries should read the Bible that they're giving away. And then follow it, and raise money to rebuild people's homes! Maybe then, that act of love would allow people to see and know the love of Christ! But no. When disaster strikes your life, I'll be sure you have a Bible and a study plan handy, so you can make sense of what's going on! Maybe it'll keep you warm at night.

God bless all the victims of Hurricane Katrina. You're in my prayers. I wish I could do more for you.

Enjoy your Bibles :p

Friday, September 09, 2005

Wedding Woes

Well, it's 30 days until I'm married! I'm excited, but getting really quite stressed out over a number of things.

First off, the apartment furniture! There's been a big hassle with getting our apartment furnished. Tuesday, they were supposed to deliver it, but then for whatever reason, they couldn't. So they were gonna bring it Wednesday between 4-8. I had a Youth Group meeting at 7, so they had to be there before 6. They were there at ten to. And they only brought the living room stuff, and the two mattresses, but the 8-piece bedroom set was absent. Grr. To top it all off, the couch was the wrong colour and a cheap material of upholstery, and it was damaged. And the coffee table was chipped and came unassembled (which isn't a bad thing, but they led us to believe it was coming in one piece.

So yeah, they're delivering the bedroom stuff tonight, as well as new coffee table and end tables. But the new couch set won't arrive until next week! And it'll cost another $200!

Anyway, Melissa and I both want our friend Andrew Hodgkins to MC our wedding reception, but my parents are set on one of their friends doing it. They seem to think that I want Andrew just to please Melissa, and that it should somehow be my decision because she's made the other ones, and I've just gone along with them. This is sooo not true! Our decisions have been very evenly split--and that mainly because we haven't disagreed on a whole lot.

But my parents are really, absurdly passionate about this other person doing it, and it's really frustrating. Anyway, I have to call Andrew and ask him to do it. If he says no, then maybe we'll go with my parents' friend. But yeah. I want Andrew!

30 more days...Just 30 more days...*sigh*

Thursday, September 01, 2005

New post = Good

Hmm, perhaps I shoulda read your latest one before posting over it, but bah, no time for that now, I've got urgent matters that need to be discussed.

Firstly, Greg, you are the only one who reads this blog, and as I've just proved, even I don't.. Man.. I/we suck. But at least you're getting married. Congrats, by the way..

Hold that thought

/saved as draft/

Okay. Nate. I'm not going to get into specifics, but die. You killed Donkey Kong, and I don't care who doesn't understand what I'm talking about. You'll get yours!

Now, less angry matters.


Uhh, school has returned, which bodes well only for cake. Cake shall be eaten once cakefest arrives, and cakefest can't arrive without school. So, logically. Without school, no one would get cakefest, and without cakefest, everyone who isn't me, would die. Wonderful, idnt it?


Uhh, That's it. Good night. Dave: out!


~Dave~